Diddy 619,
Tuesday, February 16, 2010 @ 4:51 AM
It's 4.44a.m. Cool. Can't sleep. Kept thinking of my mistakes. Serious.
This feelings fcuked up.
I still feel guilty.
I still feel annoyed.
I still feel useless.
I want to say sorry to you for all these.
Yeah.
How can I forgive myself?
Tell me.
I can't sleep totally.
I went to Nature Park alone.
Eerie.
I feel much better.
2am reached home.
I'm just restless.
I will be my usual self from now on.
But serious, honest, I'm still sad and sad.
Don't know why.
If only you had meet me, maybe I could feel better but why you not there when I need you sey?
You always said you will be there when I need you.
Where are you?
Should I believe your sweet talks again?
Your promises broken so are mine.
Haiz...
Who can I depend on?
Not even you care.
Even for a minute will make me better.
Why?
Not even you know how I feel.
Not even you can be there for me at times like this.
Who can?
Myself. That's why.
I apologized for all the mistakes.
But what you said make me fcuked up.
You don't realized what I did is for the sake of our relationship.
Things would have been worst had I not made the right thing.
You know that? You just don't understand.
Who sia understand me?
You care for your own feelings, not mine.
No matter what, I still loves, adores and miss you.
Meeting you will be the only way to make me be myself once more.
Til now, I'm still fcuked up.
If this thing happen again, I'm sorry, that might be the last time I will ever be with you.
I don't want all these to happen again k dear?
Bye. I wonder if I can sleep.
Haha... (:
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