Diddy 619,
Monday, February 1, 2010 @ 11:16 PM
Yesterday work 11am til 12am... Actually my work ended up at 7.30pm. I met up with an accident. The 27th deliveries of the day, I was heading back to my work from central and this chinese boy, standing on the pavement dashed across the road and I langgar him even though I managed to jam break. I didn't know that he would cross the road. I flung a distance away and my shirt and pants all torn. When I fell, I thought that will be my last breath cause I really really really cannot breathe properly. I looked at the sky and mengucap. I looked around very blur. I am going to die. Miracle happened, an indian guy came to me and tried to make me feel better. He called ambulance and I was admitted to NUH. Abrasion on my 2 hands, right wrist, left & right arms, both shoulders and both knees. The road was full of my blood. I lost alot of blood. My left thigh was injured and I could hardly stand and walk. I was at hospital and the doctor said it's quite serious and gave me 7 days M.C. I was not hospitalized, I asked the staff to call my parents to fetch me home. I was suprised that my whole family came to see me. My mum came to me and cried. She cried and I cried infront of alot of people. I am touched. I can't bear to see my mum cried. Now I'm blogging, I am crying. Why must this happen to me? My mum told me to quit but my dad told me to be strong cause this is part of life. Went back home and slept. Damn hurt. I feel damn weak.The boy only got fractured neck. Haiz. Already alot of problems and this stupid china guy ruined my life.!!!! I can't blame him or what. I blamed myself. Haiz.
Next day which is today, my dad woke me up to go Polyclinic for appointment and dressing. My elder brother accompanied me. It took half an hour to complete my dressing. Headed to Ubi with intention to lodge a statement but the officer told me to come tomorrow at 2pm. Haiz, nobody accompanying me tomorrow. Haiz, I'm already cannot walk properly. Nevermind, I don't want to be a burden to others. I go alone even if it's painful and risky. After that went to Kallang and Royston not there so I passed my police report to Angie and headed to Toh Guan to see bike with dad and bro. We all went to fetch my mum from work and headed home. My mum massaged me and after that I slept. Woke up at9 plus at night and went to my work place to slack and collect my pay and now I'm at home.
Sayang, I know u care alot for me. I want u not to worry abt me but worry abt urself. Seriously, I feel that i am a burden to u. Because of me u cried. Haiz. I really thanked god that I'm alive. Even the paramedics said I'm a lucky boy cause the distance I fell off my bike is really really really far and can cause death. Haiz. K sayang, I still love u alot. I am missing u. I want to meet u but in my condition, I'm scared u will cry and don't love me or wat. I know i'm stubborn. U asked me to quit the job but the manager told me to carry on working but less deliveries. So, I told them, I will continue working but 3 days per week and less deliveries and less working time. Sorry dear. I really love u so much. If anything happen to me, I'm sorry. Just take good care of urself. Before anything happens,(I hope not), I harap u jage diri baek2 and find urself a better replacement for me. I always make u sad and cry. What kind of boyfriend am i seh??? I now got alot of problems. I scared I might go jail. I scared that my license revoked. I'm scared. But I will try my very best to win this case. dear, i dun wish to lose u. But, i always have this mindset that im not the right guy 4 u. ):
